{"id":525,"date":"2013-03-11T20:43:20","date_gmt":"2013-03-11T18:43:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sergiumotreanu.wordpress.com\/?p=525"},"modified":"2013-03-11T20:43:20","modified_gmt":"2013-03-11T18:43:20","slug":"midrask-conversations-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sergiumotreanu.ro\/?p=525","title":{"rendered":"MiDraSk Conversations – 2"},"content":{"rendered":"

… or maybe not …<\/strong><\/p>\n

I told him how I felt about my experiences during the last few days. Honestly, it has been a strange and unfamiliar mix of feelings, to say the least.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Okay, I agreed that everything that happened to me had been much more that extra-ordinary, but the intensity produced in me a strange kind of ethereal, yet physical discomfort. It was an indefinite fear or perhaps just the incapacity of understanding, a frustrated melancholy (hai c\u0103 nu stau r\u0103u nici cu engleza :D) which I could not define exactly. In any possible way, I didn’t find that state noble and productive. I was looking for answers, not for more questions.<\/strong><\/p>\n

The Knight smiled and told me: – You are beginning to learn.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – This type of learning is not for me. I am not made for it.<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – You always exaggerate.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – This is not an exaggeration.<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – But this is not the real problem. The real problem is that you exaggerate the bad points only.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – There are no good points so far … All I know is that it makes me very afraid.<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – First of all, you have no idea what fear really is. Second, there is nothing wrong with being afraid. When you fear, you see things in a different way.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – But I don’t care about seeing things in a different way. I think I am going to leave the learning alone. I can’t handle it. This is a really bad situation for me … inside and outside.<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – Of course it is bad. It is bad for me, too. But I’ve made up my mind and I am going to do my part in this role. But you know what ? I can’t do it without you.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – Hmmm …<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – It’s so easy to understand, yet so hard to do it. Fear is the first enemy you must overcome on your path to sublime knowledge.<\/p>\n

The Blacksmith\u00a0 – You may have a point. But how and what can I change ?<\/p>\n

The Knight\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 – You are not thinking in the proper order. Change this. Think about the last few days. Think about nothing else. The rest will come to you of itself.<\/p>\n

…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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