\u00ceMI CAUT EU-UL<\/p>\n
Visez … sunt treaz \u015fi visez. E superb\u0103 senza\u0163ia. Doar a\u015fa pot tr\u0103i de dou\u0103 ori mai mult dec\u00e2t ceilal\u0163i.<\/p>\n
Cum te sim\u0163i la patruzeci\u015fi\u015fase de ani ? \u00centre v\u00e2rste, ne\u00eencadr\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 \u00een ele.
\nDifuz, conform, confuz, diform.<\/p>\n
Sunt treaz … visez \u015fi sunt treaz. Senza\u0163ia e l\u0103udabil\u0103, dar nu mai e superb\u0103. Pentru c\u0103 acum \u015ftiu \u015fi pot s\u0103
\nv\u0103 spun ce visez. Dar nu v\u0103 voi spune.<\/p>\n
EU stau pe spate cu m\u00e2inile pe piept. De altfel, mor\u0163ii sunt \u00eengropa\u0163i \u00een aceast\u00e3 pozi\u0163ie \u015fi crede\u0163i-m\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103
\ns\u0103 cerceta\u0163i c\u0103 este cea mai odihnitoare.
\nEL s-a desprins din mine, de mine … plute\u015fte deasupra mea, deasupra patului. V\u0103d prin el. De ce ? Pentru c\u00e3 este EL. \u015ei mai ales pentru c\u0103 nu sunt EU. \u00cemi spune c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 plece din mine, departe de mine. \u00cemi \u015fopte\u015fte c\u0103 o s\u0103 fie bine, c\u0103 o s\u0103-mi revin. \u015ei minte. Spune doar o parte din adev\u0103r. \u015ei minte.
\nCe am vorbit cu EL ? (subiect pentru un eseu viitor) Totul \u015fi nimic. Sau mai bine spus ceva.
\nO s\u00e3 fie bine doar c\u00e2nd \u00eei voi sim\u0163i inima b\u0103t\u00e2nd \u00een acela\u015fi ritm cu a mea, o s\u0103 fie bine c\u00e2nd ne vom uita la acela\u015fi lucru \u015fi vom vedea acela\u015fi lucru, o s\u0103 fie bine c\u00e2nd ne vom atinge buzele. O s\u00e3 fie bine c\u00e2nd va fi l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, \u00een mine \u015fi \u00een afara mea; \u00een jurul meu, \u00eempresur\u00e2ndu-m\u0103.
\nEL nu fuge de mine pentru c\u0103 el nu fuge de nimeni. EL a\u015fteapt\u0103 s\u0103 fie g\u0103sit pentru c\u0103 \u015ftie c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 m\u0103
\n\u00eempresoare \u015fi \u00eei place s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eempresoare. EL vrea s\u0103 \u00eel g\u0103sesc, dar nu m\u0103 caut\u00e3 \u2026 pentru c\u00e3 \u015fi EL, ca \u015fi EU vis\u0103m \u015fi suntem treji.
\nVreau s\u00e3 \u00eel g\u00e3sesc … sunt treaz \u015fi visez.<\/p>\n
\u00ceMI CAUT EL-UL<\/p>\n
Hmmm … mint. Spun doar o parte din adev\u0103r \u015fi mint.<\/p>\n
De fapt, o caut pe EA.<\/p>\n
P.S. Eseu scris cu ocazia ultimei mele am\u0103giri sentimentale survenit\u0103 pe la vreo 23 de ani. (patetic\uf04a?)Dez-am\u0103girea a urmat 2 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni mai t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
Acum, c\u00e2nd m\u0103 uit peste scriere, \u00eemi dau seama c\u00e2t de promi\u0163\u0103toare, \u00een\u0103l\u0163\u0103toare, liber\u0103, sincer\u0103 \u015fi plin\u0103 de pronfunzime putea fi \u015fi c\u00e2t de fragmentat\u0103, aproape banal\u0103 \u015fi lipsit\u0103 de str\u0103lucire \u015fi de direc\u0163ie este.
\nCa \u015fi rela\u0163ia \u00een sine.<\/p>\n
Dar ideea exist\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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